Hello Daddy

How are you, Daddy

12th May, 6 years ago, you were passed away, papa
after laid down for years with sickness
And I guess, after too tired, waited all of your beloved children return home


I will always regret that I was wasted my time,
without gave any good care of you


How I wish to be dared enough to heard your wishes,
How I wish had opportunity to stayed and spent a little time together
How I wish could shared all my blesses and happiness with you
How I wish could provided the best medical ever for you
How I wish you went away not that soon
How I wish could saw you now, and for many years more
How I wish could showed how much I love you


I guess, my best time with you faded slowly when I walked out of home,
pursue my senior high study, and hardly returned back to our hometown
But I will always remember and miss my many good times with you


It had gone …,


Never could I might made a cup of coffee or cooked a no MSG meals for you
Never could I bought your favorite tobacco“storm king”,
(though Mom would scream out loud for “don't”)
Never would we could jointly listen your favorite “Keroncong” music,
Never would we watched and laughed at “Sister Act” on 14” black and white television


Never could we enjoyed fresh-boiled cassava and hot tea
Never could I gave massages whenever you felt stretched
Never could I saw you checked all windows and doors,
made sure all were lock and we kept safely, every single nights.
Never would you woke up, made sure the door locked back and everything just fine,
whenever your youngest boy came in very late of the nights through his adult years


How I missed to enjoyed a fresh windy air and a dramatic cloud
as we sat and waited for you and mom planted paddy
How I missed fall asleep in your arms while you driven an old motor-cycles
How I missed my times, slowly bicycling, followed your paths went home


I will always remember those cool nights,
when we rowed our small jukung, fight a heavy stream,
return home with no fish after hours ma-lunta along Barito river bank
How I wish could put you on the speedboat and scream
'Dad, no need to row now. We won over the stream !!”
How I wish could always served you with pork, prawn or patin fish, your favorite meals,
and spoke “Dad, no need to hunting or fishing now, I would provided any meals you wish !”


I guess, I never showed how much I loved you, daddy !!
I was late, I always came late for you
I was late to came after graduation, late to came and say 'Hi”
Late to saw your smile, late to heard the last words of your wisdom


I will always miss you Daddy, my very strong man, kind, calm , wise, smart,
Humble, but always proud with of us
Hope you are happy in heaven, dad
Keep watching us





By Mayang

For 6 years you passed away

Dancing Queen

IELTS syndrome is quite significant among us, hehehe.

Last night, after tried a difficult listening test and turned in very low score (less then 20 correct answers), we had crazy dance in dormitory. Ellen was the dancing queen, mysef n Mbak Herlina as a background dancers, Ilsa as DJ operator, and Evi as camera-women. It was very fun. We dance till swept; full with scream and laugh.

Lucky from Jason Mraz wil bring us lucky in IELTS test. "Lucky I am in love with my best friends ... ! lalalalala ..... !!! It was very good reggae songs that brought us up to the moon. I think it was excellent exercise to make us very much in the mood for IELTS.

Yes, tomorrow is the day. All the best to everyone !!

Myg

My IELTS Test

What do I feel and think about this Saturday test??

Clearly, this is very important test. Short term effect; extend my stay in Jakarta or not? Long term: make Holland closer or far away?? Yeahhh..., it makes sense that many friends get nervous.

Grammar is my most weakness, both in writing and speaking. Honestly, I almost give up to study. Somehow, I have decide to devoted this 2-3 days to review, and see how it comes. Yes, I am a bit not confident with this next test.

However, I think we have learn so much over those 4 months. Absolutely, it has increased our English, no matter we aware or not, but it does !! At least, we learn many new vocabularies, read many advance materials, expose to English communication on daily teaching, and has practiced write many academics papers. We should be ready more than we imagine !?

I think, finally, no need to worry. It just another English test. Yes, it is important, but its not the end of the world if I failed. I will do my parts, learn harder and keep focus. And the rest, I will leave it with God.

I believe He always grants us much more than we could imagine or believe. It is absolutely his time to show His power unto his proud and stubborn child.

I am surrender, and leave it on His grace !!!

Railway in Cental Kalimantan !?

I get upset to read today news in Jakarta Post Page 3.

It is about railway development which will be begin next May (tender) in Central Kalimantan. This 185 Km track will open bigger access to jungle, and imagine for 700 Km more till 2012. I think this gonna be bring no much good for local people and environment, but latent problems for the long term.

I am not agree with governor plant to improve development through open isolation with this way. Dayak people has no skill and capacity and willingness to produce hardly anything. I think our main focus should be to increase productivity, before this mega expensive railway project. There should be other cheaper cost to open our isolation, but not railway as proved by other research.

Help me to understand that we are not going to be under new colonialism of Japan for the next 30 years. I do hope that I just over react and paranoid, but this all will bring good think for us. ( I can't believe it !!?).

Why don't we learn from previous Ex-Mega Rice Project that cleared over 1 M hectares land in CK and leave big disaster for environment.

God, bless my country n region.

Beauty of Communication

Guess: is it a tragic or funny?

Two people, sit side by side, but communicate via internet messenger; like Evi, Wawan and Herdy today, hehehehe. Like what I did sometime too. I guess it should be fun, as we could exchange comments on something or someone privately, without disturbing others who needs silent situation.

But, is it still funny when two people side by side no talking to other, but rather prefer to communicate with a far away people out in the moon than the "real". It is kind of sad, though. Especially, as it is became quite a trend now.

When I was a bit addictive with facebooks (get over a little now), I notice has spent quite considerable times communicate with friends that I hardly ever met and talked for nothing. As a consequent, less time on chat with real people around me. In fact, when I was on crazy with my dreamlife, I found that friends who came around to said " hi" was disturbed my times and concentration. Hmmmm .... it is tragic, isn't it?

The Last Month

Hello May...,

This would be my last months in Jakarta ?? I guess, I hope.
No extend or so, but return back home.
Return to my warm hometown and busy working life.

Yet, I know that I will miss my easy and lazy life, here in Jakarta.
Hot water bath, full laundry, late wake up, movies times.
Just study and need no worry with jobs.

Will I be going to dreamland this year?
Yes, hope to know for sure by May.

Welcome back, May !!
This gonna be an important month for the next path.

Hope, its gonna be a very good news for everybody.